Never the ordinary

brief boredom 7…

No title enclosed on this one. I’m just gonna make this drop on a personal level then you can just nod your head and say that maybe this happened to you or not.

I remember when I was young I would swing on the swings at the park. I enjoyed going high and higher and when I did hit the high point on the swing it felt good that when I would hit the low part I felt sick. Go high again and it felt good once again- this feeling continued  until I would stop playing on the swings.

My life consisted of so many highs and so many lows… the year or so I’ve been on this ultimate high, enjoying my new life as a graphic designer, get paid for something I love doing most, taking in life that I was oblivious to in the past. I shared my high with the ones I loved, family, friends and even a special someone- hoping I would never get down from it. I then realized my high slowly going down hill- I felt like I was on that swing, but this time it’s going slowly… making me sick to my stomach.

I’m feeling the low of that “swing of life” and while I’m low, I’ve been feeling friction at my feet, (kindah like how you stop yourself from that swing)… That low is slowing me down from getting back high. So right now, it’s time to stop the swing in life figure things out, put everything into place, gather my senses to remember how it felt to feel to be on that high.

I keep reminding myself that I’ve been through worse, I’ve been through almost everything… never did I experience a heartache (maybe twice but the guy broke my heart to be with someone else). I’ve always broken hearts and I guess it’s my time to experience it. I’ve never been in this place and this place feels like the whole swing experience. I felt so high when I was with this person and now that it’s all said and done, I’m at a low…

I’m slowly rocking back and forth waiting for that perfect lift. And when I get that lift again I hope that high will last forever.